Long Time

My commitment issues are well displayed. I haven't written in a long time. I find that I always go through stages.
Examples: at the moment I only want to want to eat the Chef Boyardee meat balls and pasta, not the ravioli. I was so into the couch to the 5k and now I haven't done it in over a week. I went through a phase in high school where I would stretch every morning, that lasted about a month.
I think the thing is that I get bored with things. I need variation in my life! Right now though all I do is work in my room at school. I'm feeling good about it but also completely overwhelmed.
I always feel that no matter how much I get done, I still have so much more to do. Three day long meetings next week will take me out of my room, which is making me crazy!
This week is my last full week off! Summer went by so fast. I'm excited and scared all at the same time. It's a new part of my life that's basically a mystery. There isn't a pause button though so I guess I'll just have to move forward.
I'm super ready for my first pay check. Pay my debts, save some for a new living space, spend some on myself and others. My goal is to be moved out of my parents house in a year. I'll need to start looking for a roommate now, because there is no way I could live alone.

"It's an imperfect world, screws fall out all the time" - The Breakfast Club

Boating

I've been a busy lady! Not doing my walk or jog but painting in my classroom! It looks so much better but it was a lot of work, and I still have more to go! I'm really excited about it though!
Today was a rough one in the classroom thought because I was so tired and hungover. A girls night with some friends and aunts was much needed but exhausting! Four hours of sleep then 3 hours in the room painting and what not.
But now I'm on a mini vacation. The great land of Biloxi to see the legendary Joan Rivers! You might thing I'm being sarcastic but I'm not! I freaking love her! I'm very excited! The trip didn't exactly start off on the right foot! I not only did I forgot the short that I planned on wearing I also forgot my bra. And today of all days I wore the oldest, thinnest sports bra I own.
What if I actually meet Joan?! I can't be wearing that!! An emergency trip to Walmart and now I look like the Kardashian I really am!!
On another random note, I want Otto be known that if I ever married a type of food it would be Chinese. He would never do me wong!

"What's happening hot stuff?" - Sixteen Candles

sore-ta

Today's walk/jog was basically pathetic! As my alarm was going off I just couldn't motivate myself to get out of bed to go. After an hour, I had my mental list of pros and cons, and the pros won. I decided to try something new since I was suppose to jog for thirteen minuets. I was going to bring my phone with me and listen to music.
 What a horrible idea! Not only were all the alerts from Facebook and text messages totally distracting, but my leg would involuntary begin to limp whenever a rap song would come on. Sure, it would pump me up and get me ready, but then my gangster switch would just flip. I couldn't stop the swag. Swagger doesn't really make for good running posture. Needless to say, I did not complete my thirteen minuet mile.
 In other news, the paint for my classroom came in today! I couldn't be more excited! I've been waiting for this so I can actually get into the room and make real changes. Sure, I dusted and swept and whatnot. But now I want to transform it into something entirely new! It'll be my little love fern! Watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 days may affect my writing!

Our love fern, you let it die?!!? - How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days

I've been through the desert on a horse with no name

You can never trust your weather channel app! I actually woke up to go do my workout and checked the weather, I was suppose to have an hour before the rain!
Lies, all lies! I had about five minuets of a dry run. At first the rain was light and a little refreshing. Then it became the perfect storm! While jogging with the wind and rain was fine, but once I turned around to head down the street I was constantly slapped with wind and rain.
I was suppose to jog for 11 minuets but I couldn't even see in front of me and I just kept seeing Lieutenant Dan from Forrest Gump yelling about not letting your socks get wet. I jogged for about six, walked a few more and ten ran back to my house. My clothes are still in the bathtub and my shoes are in the dryer!
I also turned in all my paperwork with the school board. It's all becoming extremely real and scary! I'm glad though because I'm ready to start on this new leg, to have a real paycheck and maybe even new living quarters soon!

Just singing in rain, what a glorious feeling- Singing in the Rain

Laughter through tears

Well well well. I've come to the painful realization that I'm not 18 anymore. I acted like I was last night, and now I'm paying for it.
Yesterday afternoon was a friend's couple's shower. It was like being in high school again! Sitting there with old friends like no time had passed at all! I loved it and I wish it could happen more often!
I also had a huge drunken revelation about my life and myself. Though I sounded like Jack Nicholson from One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, it totally made sense to me. That's what's really important right?
I really need to locate my id, but I have no idea where it is! I should have given it to my friend who had her purse, but I opted for the class bra purse and now I have no identification. The bar's phone is off the hook and I don't want to drive out there if no one is there.
I'm suppose to walk/jog today but I feel that I would literally throw up or pass out! I already want to and I've just been laying around. I'll have to adjust my schedule next week to fit it all in.

Which one of you nuts have got guts? - One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest

Getting the Worm

For the first time in a while, I actually woke up and did my walk/jog. At the start I was impressed, I jogged for almost half a mile without stopping!
After that though, it was hard to run again. I was suppose to jog six, walk five, jog six, walk five. I'm just realizing that I totally forgot to walk the other five. Whoops! I guess I totally forgot because I was about to throw up in a ditch.
I feel so dumb now! I might not having been able to jog the last three minuets of the second jog but I definitely could have walked for five more! I think it's because for the most part of this it's walk five, jog however long, wall five. So I'm use to only doing three increments.
I need to start bringing water though, I needed it, that might have been another factor in my momentary Alzheimer's.
On another note, I might get my car back today! This is very exciting! It's hard to believe how much I actually relied on it.

Maybe shes praying because the elastic is shot in her pantyhose. - Steel Magnolias

Worth a thousand words..

Today I've seen the greatest picture of myself that I believe will ever be taken of me. It seems to have captured every fiber of my being! Mike Lirette is an amazing photographer! He captured the entire mood the night! I'll attach it! In love!!
It's funny how photos can capture so much. Sometimes they show us things we don't normally see in ourselves. When I look in the mirror, or when I mentally picture myself in my head, I look totally different than in pictures.
In a way it's completely motivating and depressing all at the same time. The picture I'm posting of course is amazing, but in others I see the features I'd like to change. I set my alarm for 6:30 tomorrow morning. Getting back in the workout grind!
I skipped yesterday's due to the holiday, and was going to do it tonight, but my body would basically punch me in the face, of this I'm sure.
Independence day was magical, Independence night wasn't. I couldn't fall asleep to save my life! After three episodes of House and three of I Love Lucy, I was nauseas as ever! It was weird though because my imbibing wasn't excessive, though my previous post made have made you think otherwise.
I'm feeling better now, but definitely not feeling like a champ. I'm ready to get all the toxins out tomorrow in the morning heat!

Why do you want to take a portrait of someone you've never seen, Diane? - Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus

Freedom

The island never fails! It's not named Grand Isle for nothing! It really is grand!
I got to catch up with old friends and gain an uncle! The white russians are dangerous and the booze cruises are serious!
I'm always the first to go to bed but all this freedoms must have given me a "second wind". I made a funny, because that's the name of the camp! Oh so witty! I'm so glad for our freedom! So so glad!
Too often I take it for granted. Today reminded me of all the good in my life!

They can take our lives, but they can never take our freedom- Brave Heart

The Blues

I'm guessing you learn something new everyday. Wanna know what I leaned today? I am a horrible baker!
My mother is practically famous for her cream cheese squares. People shun her when she shows up somewhere without them, they request them as presents. They are legendary! And I screwed them up royally! First I of course needed to add food coloring to make them blue in honor for out great nation's birthday. This was a fun idea, but a total fail. The turned out green! Second, I completely forgot I was even baking them and they brunt! Not un-edible but not the cream cheese squares everyone loves.
My mother is mortified and will probably never let me make them again. On her death bed she'll probably rip the recipe out and tell my sister to never let me see it.
I also learned that doing a cartwheel becomes increasingly more difficult with age. I use to be able to cut cartwheels across the entire yard. I did like five tonight and I'm already sore!
Tomorrow I'll be on island time! No promise of my witty banter! :)

I need a little more love in this ear- This Is It

Ketchup

So I lied yesterday when I said I was waking up at 7. It didn't happen, but I did do my workout today. It was hard! I was suppose to jog for nine mins, but I just couldn't do it. I think it's easier to do it on a treadmill or elliptical because it absorbs some of the shock. I did jog for five mins straight though, which is a lot more than I could do five weeks ago.
I've been committed to this for five weeks, it's the longest relationship I've ever had! With the exception of the relationship I have with my death trap of my car. Today my father used it to go to work because his truck was in the shop. Much to his surprise, my gear shaft had a malfunction.
I'm so glad it happened to him instead of me because he never would have believed me of I had gotten into a wreck. Luckily, he didn't get into an accident.
The night ended with a catch up visit with a lovely lady. The one thing I dislike about growing up is the totally lack of sleepovers! I'll make a point to have them more often!

That's what I love about high school...- Dazed and Confused

Ya dig!?

I cannot tell a lie, I didn't do my workout today. My alarm is sett for 7am! I will wake up, and I will get outside in the 1000 degree heat and walk/jog a mile and a half.
Last night was a pool party, lots of fun. I may be digging myself into a hole, or tunneling to somewhere new. I'll make sure to track the journey to see where it goes.
Today was suppose to be a lazy hangover day, but things rarely go as planned. I ended up going see Magic Mike, out to dinner, then a road trip to River Ridge to pick up my parents.
Due to my dad's burning back axel, or something like that, I'll be carless for a while. I'm hoping my father sees how ridiculous my car is and give me a break! What's likely to happen sight he'll yell about it being dirty.

Go to bed, you from Sherveport? - The Princess and the Frog